i handed a dream over to God this weekend.

it wasn’t a big dream – just something that i had been pondering for the last few months. i’ve been thinking about getting a car for a while, but when i seriously looked at the reasons i wanted particular vehicles and process in my heart i knew that i was going about it the wrong way. so i handed it over to God, saying i want You to be what my life is about. not impressing other people or giving off a certain image with the things that i own, but having my choices reflect the actual things in my heart.

tied up with that decision though are all the goals and dreams and visions i have held onto in my life. where are they now? i often feel like i don’t have anything to reach for, to advance towards. i seem to have plateaued in many respects, sitting on a level place and not quite being sure how to continue my way upwards.

it’s not that i am doing nothing, of course i’m rather active. i give willingly of my time and wealth to ministries in my church, i have been making an effort at reaching out and sharing Christ with people around me, and trying to be intentional in the communities i am in. i’m not fooled, i know that the point is not doing, but to some extent i don’t know what else to do or where else to go.

i am reminded of the israelites during the bablyonian captivity. they find themselves in babylon and know that eventually God will return them home. with that in mind they keep up their practices, their separation, and an existence focused around returning home. the word to them is simple: you’re going to be here for a few generations. buy houses, marry, and plant crops. pray for the shalom of the city in which you find yourself.

is that a dream to have?