even though i use wordpress sometimes i feel like i ought to be using livejournal, given the mental state i am in whenever i make a post anymore. observe my typical twentysomething angst!

nonetheless, i just have to get this out there: how do you transition from being sad every time you have a happy memory of something lost to just remembering with joy that you ever had such good fortune? for once i would just like to be happy remembering the happy times and reminiscing and not simply feel an unfulfillable longing to be back in the ‘good old times‘.

i hope i figure that out soon.

friday addendum: looks like i won’t. i don’t know if i can handle feeling like this for the rest of my life.